What a difference a couple days make. Today my new regimen of Oxycodone and anti-nausea meds seem to have stabilized me to a point where I was pretty functional. Maybe I found the right combination of drugs.
This morning I worked in the yard with my weed whacker (string trimmer) edging all my flower beds. For the day I also took in a solid 4+ cans of sludge plus Gator Ade and good old Coca Cola. I didn’t lose weight today.
I visited RadDoc this afternoon and much to my surprise he reported I’ve lost only 1.5 pounds in the past two weeks . Then I returned home continued my drug habit and then went out and raked up some pine needles. I came inside and drank (yes, drank) half a can of Boost before finishing it in the tube. That was a first in months.
Tonight I went to my monthly poker event, made a cameo appearance (45 minutes), and that was my first social encounter in two months. I even won $9. Then I came home and played half hour of guitar. My fingers were sore and my singing was weak but at least I had the motivation to do it. Damn good day.
Emotions: I feel relatively good and hopeful again. I said this would be an honest blog so I don’t apologize for my previous two postings. I was miserable and very well may have other lousy days coming up and readers will likely hear about those too. I heard from a couple oral cancer survivors who recognized my frustration and assured me “this too shall pass.” I suppose I’ll still have my demoralizing days. I guess it goes with the territory where I am concerned. The reality of knowing I have many months of recovery to go will sink in quite frequently I imagine. But I continue to march forward.
Good news! Keep whacking them weeds.
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way to go, Ben. Hope the "good" days are more and more frequent! -Meg
ReplyDeleteCongratulations! You are amazing. In a day when you just start feeling better you are in the yard doing some (hard) yard work. More good days like this one are coming! Just take it easy, champ!
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